" Be yourself. All the other roles are taken"
I don't remember who said it. Maybe I did. But whoever did, they were right. I might like to add, Be Yourself Wherever you are at Today.
That's not a lesson I have learned easily. In fact, I still have to re-learn it at regular intervals. I keep on thinking that I should be able to do all the things I used to do. Unfortunately, that is not reality. I keep on thinking I should be unrelentingly cheerful. While I am a bit of a Pollyanna, I am certainly NOT cheerful all the time, I do get down.
I have these expectations of myself, these 'should's. Maybe someday I will be strong enough to put them down for good. Meanwhile, I am trying to be strong enough to put down my 'should's, just for a moment, just for now.